Sunday, January 25, 2009

Being Dedicated

Last night at church (we go to church on Sat. evenings) we had our Madeline, Anna and Gideon dedicated to the Lord.  We do not believe in baptizing babies, but we do believe in publicly committing ourselves to raising our children to love the Lord.  We recognize that each of our kids have their own free will and ultimately it will be their decision to choose God or not.  Ryan and I though, will do everything in our power to raise our children to know God and to have a personal relationship with him.  Prayerfully, they will desire God and will accept Him into their hearts and then at some point being baptized will come into play.  But, that will also be their own decision.

Now that our little theology lesson is over, last night was really a nice time.  We go to the same church Ryan's family goes to.  His siblings also had some of their children dedicated.  So, we had all four of the siblings on stage with 8 out of the 12 grandkids up there.  We also all had some family there, so we were quite a large group.  We all went out to eat afterwards, which was a little chaotic, but still fun.  The food was really yummy and all in all it was a good time.  I left the evening feeling grateful for family and friends, but mostly I felt a deep sense of joy for our five beautiful blessings that God has entrusted us with.  May we do him proud!

Julie

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Finally some pictures!


Opening presents...



The kids in Leah's bed getting ready to come downstairs Christmas morning.
Gee and Papa from Christmas Eve.





Gee, he's the cheesiest!

This is what happens when a bad hair twist habit gets out of hand.








The kids pretending to sleep on the stairs.


This is daddy's version of a bath.

















From now on we will just have to a little matching game when it comes to what picture goes with what saying. That is fun, huh?.
Also, I will add Florida pics later because this post has gotten crazy long!
Julie

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

So much more...

You know I have been thinking a lot lately about our adoptions.  We first looked in to adopting in 2003.  At that point we were experiencing secondary infertility and we really wanted to grow our family.  We felt blessed to have experienced to two great pregnancies and births and we were ready to embark on a new journey to complete our family.  At that point it was a means to an end. Sure, we liked the idea of giving a child a home that did not have one, but honestly, we just wanted more kids.  Over the last 5 to 6 years though, adoption has become much more to me than that.

From a practical standpoint, it was our means to complete our family.  From an emotional standpoint, well, words can't even describe the beauty of the experience.  We have been through a lot to get our family to where it is today.  All five of my kids are a beautiful gift from God and I deeply treasure the way each of them came into our lives.  That being said, on an emotional level, our adoption experience has far exceeded my expectations.  I knew Ryan and I would love and accept any adopted child as our own, but to actually watch that process happen is amazing. 
Every day I witness 3 little ones playing together and loving one another as if it had always been.  I see two big kids melt when Anna cries or Gee falls down.  I see a little boy completely enamored  with a daddy that I have no doubt he thinks the world revolves around.  I see all these beautiful things and I then I think, a year and a half ago we were nothing to these two children. Now they are our lives, we are their lives.  It truly overwhelms me.

Over time a new aspect of adoption has sprung in me and that is the spiritual aspect.  Of course it is a good thing to take in an orphan, but I never really paid attention to how much the Bible really says about orphans.  Over and over again God calls us to be instruments of justice for orphans and to care for them.  Isaiah tells us to "Learn to do right, seek justice, encouraged the oppressed.  Defend the cause of the fatherless, plead the case of the widow."  This is just one of many verses I found.  I don't mean to sound preachy, but I really feel like part of God's heart is caring for orphans.  I guess I just feel so blessed to be able to love and raise two of those fatherless that God cares so much about.  And really it affects me more than that.  I think adoption is something I am pretty passionate about now.  Not for us to necessarily go out and adopt more kids, but I think a seed has been planted in me.  It is hard to explain, but I am hopeful that at some point in my life I can use this passion in a way that will please God.

You know, as I sit and type this post, I am just amazed at what God has done in our lives over the past few years.  This time, almost 4 years ago, was probably about the lowest point in my life.  We had just gotten back from Russia without our twins and my heart was broken.  It had been a rough couple years before that, but that was a pretty severe blow.  Soon after we got home we did some high tech infertility treatments and were able to get pregnant.  By early March we were told that our new found pregnancy would end in miscarriage.  To be honest, at this point I thought God had completely forgotten I existed (there's some weak faith for you).  I was so bitter with him.  Well, that miscarriage became our little Madeline and when she was a year old we found our Anna and Gee and you know the rest.  I still have no clue why God allowed us to experience the losses we endured, but I am finally to a place where I don't have to know.  God never abandoned me and I can honestly say I am a stronger and better person having been through those struggles.  Praise God for allowing me to see this side and praise Him even more for bringing me through this with a newfound passion.

Thanks for reading and allowing me to share.

Julie 

Sharing a praise and update.

Something happened in Florida that I want to publicly praise God for.  We stayed at two different houses while there and they both had pools.  That is very typical for the houses in that area.  So, we spend lots of time by the pool, even if we are not swimming.   I am a weinie about being cold, so when it is 70 something outside, I do not get in.  The kids however would swim if it were in the 50's.  The four oldest do great in the water.  Last summer Madeline and Anna mastered swimming by themselves with just arm swimmies on.  At first I was scared, then I became very proud that at 2 years old they were doing that by themselves.  So the two little girls did lots of swimming with just their swimmies and we just kept a close eye one them.  The pool was not that big, so that was pretty easy.  Well, one day we did not see Anna.  Ryan and I asked each other and neither saw her.  All of the sudden we see Anne flapping her arms with only one swimmie on, swimming to the side of the pool.  It was obvious she had been under (the little ones couldn't touch anywhere in the pool, but the steps) the water and had brought herself back up and swam to the side of the pool with one swimmie.  I got to her just as she was reaching the side.  The poor thing was panicked and I pulled her out and cuddled her.  I was petrified at first, but then I was so proud of her.  She did an amazing job and God really protected her.

In general, the kids are just doing so beautifully.  We still have a few minor issues.  Anna still wakes up 4 or 5 times a month yelling out, like she is having a nightmare.  Gideon is having pretty major bath issues and he has for a few months now.  He hates having the water poured over his head.  He will literally scream and panic every time.  He did better his last bath, but I had to go extremely slow, hold his hand and talk him through every step.  Once his hair is washed he is happy and enjoys the rest of the bath.  It is crazy because he will start to audibly whine when I even mention a bath and he gets real sullen until the hair washing is done.

Speaking of Gideon, he is still very much a daddy's boy.  I know he loves his mama, but when daddy is around he doesn't really care to go to anyone else.  He still pretty much prefers men.  He goes to them more easily.  Gee still is not gaining weight very fast at all.  Way too slowly for my tastes, but the Dr.'s say he is fine, so we will just leave it at that.  He acts healthy, so that's whats important I guess.  His is moody though.  Probably my moodiest kid yet.  If he is tired, he gets very grumpy and irritable.  He is the same way if his feelings get hurt, like if he gets scolded.  He is just funny because sometimes he can be goofy and be ok with people egging him on watching him, but then sometimes he gets all quiet and doesn't want people to pay a bit of attention to him.  It is strange.

I still plan to add pics from Florida, but they need to loaded when Ryan is home off of his laptop.  So maybe this weekend?  Anyways, until later......

Julie

Thursday, January 15, 2009

No, we did not drop off the face of the earth!

Oh, I hate that I am not getting to blog as much as I would like.  So, how fast can I type, as we are leaving in like 10 minutes to run and get dinner (no kids, woohoo).

Anyways, here is a very short version of life the last month.  BUSY, BUSY, BUSY.

The End







Ha ha, you know I can't say anything that short.  :)

I was busier than I think I have ever been the two weeks before Christmas.  Like couldn't sleep, out of my wits busy.  I am not sure how things got so out of hand, but they did.  We left for Florida the day after Christmas and we just got back Sunday night.  I have been reclaiming my house this week and I think I am winning.  I think I will be sweeping up pine needles from our very dead tree until next Christmas.

Florida was super great.  It was however very sickly.  We had pink eye, throwing up, a UTI, cough and colds and ear infections, all in one week.  I think I spent over 18 hours in hospitals and pharmacies in the last 3 weeks.  We seriously do not have that much sickness in a year around here.  Yuck!  

Well, my 10 minutes is up (guess I am a slow typer, although I did get the crescents out of the oven!).  I will blog more later with pictures.  I just didn't want you all to think I forgot about you all!

Julie  

Friday, December 12, 2008

Christmas Pictures




Well, we took our annual "by the tree" pics yesterday.  I was so proud of the kids.  They did really well.  They were very tolerant and patient. Madeline seemed to be the most troublesome.  She was being good, but she just kept smiling at the wrong time or when she was looking somewhere other than at me.

I must say here, what a beautiful bunch of kiddos!!  I am just so proud of all five of my babies!

Julie 

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Long Time, no blog........

Well, it has been a while, sorry about that.  I normally try and blog more often, but we have been busy and really nothing too new is going on.  Christmas is rapidly approaching and we are very busy pulling everything together.  Not to mention, we are leaving the day after Christmas for a two week jaunt in Florida (yes, I know, life is rough).  Actually, as great as this Florida trip is (and trust me, we love it), is does make things a little harder.  It is always very time consuming to pack for all of us, let alone being busy with holiday stuff.  The good thing is that most are clothes we bring are summery, so I am can start packing now.  Well, not actually now because I have no where near that much for-thought, but you get the idea.

I will post some new pictures soon.  We are going to take our annual pictures around the tree today and while I am loading them up I will load some candid ones I have taken over the last few weeks.

I thought it might be nice to post what a typical day is like.  I do plan to eventually save and print this blog and having a record of a day in the life would be fun.  So, I must say, we are pretty boring.  We are all up by 8:00 and from 8 to 10 I get the little kids breakfast and changed/bathed.  The older kids have chores to do which include their household chores, plus practice piano and getting themselves ready for the day.  After things settle down a bit I let the little three watch cartoons while I find my spot at the kitchen bar.  This is pretty much my throne off and on for the next few hours.  I check homeschooling and get the kids' school work ready for another day.  We start homeschooling at 10:00.  From 10 to noon I check school work, do laundry, do dishes (yes, our dishwasher is still broke after over 9 months--can you tell I am SO bitter?) and just interact with the kids.  Often times one of the little ones sit beside me and "help" me do my work.  Lunch is at 12:00.  Leah and Logan eat at the bar and the 3 little one's either eat at their little table in the kitchen or I feed them.  Nap time is from 12:30/1:00 to about 2:30/3:00.  Also, the older two go back to work at 1:00.  Gee still sleeps in his crib and Anna sleeps in her big girl bed.  Madeline is still in her pack n play in our room because she is so untrustworthy unsupervised.  While the kids naps I usually have some free time (in between homeschool questions).  I will often times catch up on line or cut coupons.  These days I am sewing because I have lots to do before Christmas.  All 5 of the kids have an afternoon snack (if they ate lunch well) around 3:00/3:30.  Most days the older kids are done with homeschooling by that time and the younger ones are running around like hooligans after a nice snooze.  Dinner is around 5:30/6:00 which is about (I use that term pretty loosely) the time Ryan gets home.  Daddy getting home is a pretty big event and the 3 little one's get very excited.  "Daddy's home, daddy's home......"  The rest of the evening is spent eating dinner, cleaning up after dinner and just being together.  The little ones go to bed around 8:00, although they don't always go right to sleep.  We will often times chill around the tv then.  We tivo various shows like "Dirty Jobs," "Survivorman," "Man vs. Wild," "Planet Earth," etc.  We will usually pop one of those on, I will eat me daily bowl of oats and Ryan will catch up online.  The older kids go to bed at 9:30 and Ryan and I hit the pillows around 10:30.  That is pretty much it.  I totally realize that by now you are bored stiff, but this is my life and as boring as it may seem, it is pretty exciting and wonderful in my eyes.  Oh and this is really only how it goes 3 to 4 days a week.  We are gone pretty much every Wednesday from 12:30 to 8:30 (piano, Awanas, etc)  Saturdays are church days and we leave for that around 4:00.  And, we usually have another day or two interrupted by a trip to the store or some sort of get together.

More specifically, Anna and Gee are doing well.  I think Gee was struggling with something for about 3 to 4 days.  He was super moody and just not himself.  He also had pretty bad diarreha.  All 3 of the little ones have had the poo's lately, but Anna and Madeline have been acting fine.  Gideon was better yesterday, so I am hoping he is over whatever was bothering him.

Anna would probably be classified as my most low maintenance child right now.  At least out of the three littlest.  She is still a drama queen, but she is really just a sweet kid.  She's a little sneaky about stuff (getting into things), but Madeline is no help there, as Anna tends to do what Maddie does and Maddie can be just down right ornery.  Anna is extremely perceptive of her surroundings, probably more so than any of the kids.  She notices things like the "lit up moon"and the cat crossing the road.  She also has a great sense of direction.  She knows we are going to drive by the "poopie water" (the local sewage plant we sometimes pass going into town) roads before we do.  She can see daddy's truck coming from a mile  away, just stuff like that.  Anna has the most tender heart ever (very similar to Logan).  She is easy to cry and make the most pathetic face when she is upset.  She is also very sensitive to loud noises, scary images or potentially scary situations.  For the first time on Sunday she got scared by something on tv.  I was watching a show and a scary image came on and the poor girl coward to the corner of the room.  I felt so bad and I comforted her, but there she remained for like 10 minutes, even though the image was gone.  I didn't even know she was watching tv.  I was watching a movie while wrapping presents and apparently she was paying attention.  Anna's speech continues to improve.  Her favorite sayings are "I wuv you" and "I miss you."  She pretty much uses them interchangably which is super cute.

Gideon is chugging right along.  He is very good kiddo also, but he is a little more high maintenance than Anna.  He is more stubborn strong headed.  Both of those are characteristics I know and love, so that is fine, it just makes for a harder upbringing.  Gee is very funny, and pretty easy going most of the time.  In some ways he is pretty sensitive (somewhat emotionally and very much physically), but in other ways he is very rough and tumbly.  He is so wired up at times, it is actually pretty fun to watch him.  He jumps, runs, hangs off things, he is my little monkey.  Gideon is saying "no" to us more often than I'd like, but I know that is just part of being a stubborn toddler.  He is funny though because he doesn't just shout it out, he kind of says it under his breath and then doesn't do what he is told to do.  Don't get me wrong, on an everyday basis, he is pretty obedient and easy to get along with.  But, there are those times, usually when he is upset about something (like telling him "no" or scolding him for some reason) and he will not cooperate.  Example:  Yesterday he was done napping and yelling from his bed.  He knows he is not aloud to yell because it will wake Anna up.  So I go upstairs and go over to his crib and tell him he may not yell.  I wasn't overly forceful when I said it and he didn't get punished, I just stated firmly "Gideon, you may not yell."  Well, he then says "no mommy."  That starts like a 3 minute dialogue trying to get him to say "yes, mommy."  He is so stubborn it took forever to get him to say it.  This is a pretty typical situation with him.  First off, he does not like any attention that he perceives as negative.  Even if he is doing something cute and he thinks people are paying attention for the wrong reasons he gets real reclusive and won't even look at people.  So, I think when he gets scolded he internally panics at the negative attention and then his stubborness spews out "no's."  One last thing I would like to add about Gee is that is is such a daddy's boy.  He would choose Ryan over me any given day.  I am mostly fine with that because I get tons of love from him on a daily basis, but sometimes it is difficult.  I tend to be the disciplinarian with the little ones and Ryan is way more laid back with them.  That is tough when he wants to let things slide and I do not.  Then, I become the mean one.  Ryan doesn't make me look mean and he is supportive of me disciplining the kids, but I still often times look like the bad guy.  Ryan disciplines some (he expertise is the older ones though), but when he gets home and hasn't seen the kids all day, the last thing he wants to do is make them stand in the corner.  For some reason, Ryan tends to let things slide with Gee more than any of the little ones, and for the most part, I do not.

Ok, this post was way longer than I expected.  I guess that's what happens when you don't post for so long.  In summery, life is good and we are continually blessed.  Sometimes things seem very mundane and boring, sometimes things are way more "exciting" than I'd like them to be, but through it all, I feel so blessed and I love my little life.

Julie