While we were going through the adoption of Anna and Gee we very much considered that "it" for us. 5 was a good number and we agreed on that. About month or so after Gee came home I mentioned to Ryan that I thought it would be cool to do it again. You should have seen the look he shot me. As amazing as our adoption experience was, the previous 3 or 4 years had been pretty rough on us. We had to work harder than the norm to build our family and we were both exhausted. So, after bringing it up a few times over a few months, we decided to pray about it.
We prayed about the possibility for 7 or 8 months before any decision was even made. It seemed like every time Ryan and I would discuss it, we'd hit a brick wall in some way or another. After a while I started to think that it just wasn't going to happen. Adoption is obviously a major decision and I 100% believe that Ryan and I both needed to feel God move us that way or we ought not do it. Well, pretty much "ought not doing it" became where we were at and I just decided we needed to be done with it and accept it was not going to happen. Well, about a week after that conclusion was made, Ryan came up to me and said "he was really considering adopting again." I tried not to get my hopes up, but that was really cool. From then on out it just seemed our conversations led more toward another adoption than away.
We have had some big issues to consider, but we finally got to the spot where we were ready to dive in. To be honest, I sit here amazed we are even at this point. It is a beautiful thing to arrive in this spot, where I feel like both Ryan and I 100% want this. We are just so excited!